Thursday, December 23, 2010

worry much?

Anxiety. It kinda runs in my family. And honestly I haven't really noticed it in my life until a few months ago. It starts with this burning sensation in the pit of my stomach. And grows into something I think about constantly.

Lately I have been worrying non-stop about our trip to Mexico next week. I've had different dreams and nightmares about the trip. In one I am standing on one side of a chainlink fence watching people I know and I can't seem to get there. In another I get to El Paso and realize I forgot the passports, the paperwork, tools, and money.

I can't figure out the exact reason why I'm worried about it. I sat down and did the math today and we should have well over enough money to get us through the week. The house has also been paid for. I have an amazing team to work with. We have four full days to build the house.

Nope. Can't peg the reason why I'm worried.

But it's there.

So tonight I sat down and began to write out (in my new little journal Kristina got me...gracias chica!) all my worries. And then I turned to Luke 12:22-31. And this is what it says:

"And he said to his disciples, "Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat, nor about your body, what you will put on. For life is more than food, and the body more than clothing. Consider the ravens: they neither sow nor reap, they have neither storehouse nor barn, and yet God feeds them. Of how much more value are you than the birds! And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life? If then you are not able to do as small a thing as that, why are you anxious about the rest? Consider the lilies, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin, yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. But if God so clothes the grass, which is alive in the field today, and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, how much more will he clothe you, O you of little faith! And do not seek what you are to eat and what you are to drink, nor be worried. For all the nations of the world seek after these things, and your Father knows that you need them. Instead, seek his kingdom, and these things will be added to you."

Immediately after reading this, the burning in the pit of my stomach eased. The nerves and a little anxiety are still there, but I think that it's God preparing me for next week. I'm talking about getting rid of the consuming anxiety and worry.

"Instead, seek his kingdom, and these things will be added to you."

Am I seeking his kingdom in all that I do? Are you?

1 comment:

  1. you can fix your worry by just trying to plan a trip in less than 4 days. I leaves no time to worry.